Yes, I am a homesicky type of person. I get homesick easily. I’ve recently moved to a new area and I’ve been in a very long-term relationship for almost a year and a half. But, I’m not homesick for my previous place. I’m homesick for my new place. My mind and body feel like they’re in new territory. I feel like I have just landed on another planet.
It’s not just that you feel like you’ve landed on another planet (although you probably have). It’s that you feel like you’re not quite in the same place. You’re home but you’re not quite where you feel like you are at. You can feel the feelings of homesickness more acutely if you’re in a new relationship. It can also come from a new job or new school.
This is why new homes are so often the hardest to leave. They can be so much more like home than you would think. Sure, you can always stay in them, but for the most part that feeling of the old place can fade. It’s hard to imagine living in a house all by yourself, for example. It’s even harder to imagine staying with the same guy for a while, but you can.
I feel the same way about new jobs. I love my current job, but I also feel like I had to leave it for a while for some reason. I’ve been making a lot of money at a different site, but I’ve yet to find a way to let that go. I still feel like I’m working.
I wonder if that feeling of isolation is because I don’t want to leave my current job. I want to feel like Im still working at some point, but I haven’t gotten there yet. There is a part of me that wants to make a new life somewhere, but that part also still wants to stay in the same place. I can always take a step back and say, “Yes, but there is something more to my life. This is a good place for me to be.
This is a good place for me to be because I am homesick. If I had somewhere to live, I would be so over it. I know that I would be miserable, but I dont think I would be able to handle it. So while I dont want to say that I am homesick, Im just not sure that im ready to jump out of my current job and start over yet.
To be very honest, I have the exact same feeling. Not ready for a change—I would be bored and disinterested in what I was doing if I was. I want to be in a position where I can just be myself and enjoy every moment of it.
I think it’s interesting that you say that you want to be yourself. I think it would be a lot more intriguing if that was your default setting. I think it would take a lot of self-awareness to do that. And it would take a lot of self-confidence. I don’t think I could handle the idea of being a generic person with a different set of values.
I’m going to say that I really wish I could be you. I wish I could be anywhere other than who I was. I wish I could be more like just being me. I wish I was more confident in myself. I wish I could enjoy the moment more. I wish I could be more confident in my abilities and in my own self-worth. And I hope that I would be able to do it as well as I do now.
I don’t think we can ever truly be anyone else. But I do wish we could be ourselves a little more than we are. It’s so nice to be able to be ourselves a little.
